[转载]永远的虫

永胜老师，您的作品在很多地界以观，好就是好，没有混沌话（非中庸之意），梦对于一个有着真挚情感的艺术家来说，就是一个非尔非他的创作意识思维，庄子也好、老子也罢，梦带来了心的归宿、梦的呓语，这就是艺术家所梦不所现的一个层面。
早年如睡狮梦醒，今时不恰当，以物、情、景交替唤醒，也可谓是智者之举，期待与梦幻交替之时的美景，很少有人精读，倘若人品人之时无功利褒贬时则属高境，但老师的作品技艺之精，可谓上作，虫不过是咱的代言人如是，虫虽小，其生存的能力与搏杀不次于人，说白了，老师借虫诉世，天经地义的论说。
消失不在画里而在其心，虫已回归，心已坦荡，静观其意，长远者。
谢谢，常来常往原文地址：永远的虫作者：永胜的版画空间

Eternal Insects

Chinese ancient great thinker Zhuangzi said that once he dreamthe was a butterfly, but he didn't know if he was Zhuangzi who haddreamt he was a butterfly, or a butterfly dreaming he was I reviewed my almost 20 year creative career, I found that theinsects seem to be the eternal theme of my works. I don’t know I think that, just like the butterfly in Zhuangzi’s dream, myinsects must have their own significance.

I first encountered the insects theme in the late 1980s and theearly1990s. In China, that is an age in which we were just breakingaway from the imprisonment of thought. There is sharp conflictamong the information explosion, pluralism of ideology and thelimitation of reality. As a young fine arts major universitystudent, cruel and helpless reality couldn’t give some comfort tomy anguish and turmoil inner.

At that time, reality for me was like an old picture withoutcolor. Until one day, like a day dream, I encountered an insect inmy work. The insect is such an unflattering smallcreature that also contains creation and the principle of is like a symbol of life and soul opened the way between myheart and the outside reality. I have tried to put the insects intoa strange space. This space is big enough, and at the same timesmall enough, where the spiritual insect can gallop inside freely,because it is an unlimited universe beyond the consciousness ofhuman being.

I remember that I very enjoyed the making process, enjoyed thesensation that came from the interaction between myself and thematerials, and thus almost forgot myself. It waslike an effective medicine that got into my depressed heart andgave it freedom and great release. It was many years later when Igradually came to understand that that is a kind of self discoverypoint to the deeper heart which is caused by the strong pressure ofthe cruel reality. It is a wearing shackles dance.

After that, the insects usually continue to appear in mywork. It is indeed an eternal theme. Maybe itwill disappear one day, or it will continue. Whoknows?

永远的虫

中国古代的大思想家庄子说过，有一天他梦见了蝴蝶，醒来后不知道是自己在梦中梦见了蝴蝶，还是蝴蝶在梦中梦见了自己。回顾我将近20年的创作生涯，虫子这一主题时常在我的作品里出现，我不知道为什么。不过我想，就像庄子梦中的蝴蝶一样，我的虫子一定也有它自身的意义。

第一次和虫子这一主题相遇是在上一世纪八十年代后期以及九十年代初。在中国，那是一个刚刚摆脱思想禁锢的时代。信息的爆炸，思维的多元化与现实的局限产生了剧烈的冲突。对于一个年轻的，即将毕业的美术系大学生来说，我时常感到无所适从，充满青春的苦闷和骚动的内心丝毫不能在残酷而无奈的现实中找到任何安慰。现实对于我仿佛一张发黄的老照片，毫无色彩。

直到有一天，我和一只虫子在画面里不期而遇，像一个白日梦。我仔细地审视着它——这个渺小的生灵，总是被人们忽略，但它却包含着自然无限的造化和法则。它像一个富有灵魂的生命符号，突然打开了我的内心与外部现实的通道。我想把这种感觉表达出来。很长时间，我被一种表达的冲动困扰着。突然有一天，我把一只具体的虫子放入了一个陌生的空间。这个空间是那么的大，同时又是那么的小，因为它是超越人类意识之上的无限的宇宙概念，足以让一个富有灵魂的生命符号在其间自由地驰骋。

至今我仍然记得，观念表达和符号选择的准确对应使我那段时间能够完全沉浸在制作和表达的快感里。我被一种由于意向选择的准确所导至的自我和材料之间的互动所产生的欣快感所包围和控制，似乎达到了一种物我两忘的境界。那种状态像一剂良药，使我焦虑和苦闷的内心得到了自由地释放。直到多年以后我才逐渐明白，那是一种在残酷而无奈的现实挤压下所产生的向内心深处的自我挖掘，是戴着镣铐的舞蹈。

从那以后，虫子这一主题时常在我的作品里出现，直到现在。对我来说这一主题或许是永恒的，也或许它将会在某一天消失。谁知道呢?